I was in 7th standard when i first thought about commiting suicide!!
As mischievous as i could be , i was always on the top of my effort to get into the skins of the people.
I had my own bunch of sooper built monsters on my side to give me confidence enough to prove and justify darwin's theory!!
May be i was little too overconfident when i tried few tricks on my teacher . And in the next scene there i was standing on top of the bench with my head held high enjoying the fact that i am the tallest person on universe. I stood there the whole day with little kichi kichi sounds of sarcastic laughter heard from my so called friends. Yes that day i did think of few methods on how to commit suicide!!!
Long back , i had got a forwardmail explaining the different ways of killing a lion!! And some of my company friends were happy adding our company name at the end of the mail and explain our copyrighted way of killing the lion and forward it. After one and half years in this industry , i realize that those lions were nothing but us!! Yes , i got one more point which sneaked into my list of the different ways of committing suicide!!
Friday, September 29, 2006
Thursday, February 23, 2006
College life
A lot of things are going in my mind , but i dont know , i just cant pen it down here.
Some things are disturbing , some are sweet.
Yes , now i am a complete software engineer . A lot of things are happening around me and i feel disinterested in all of it and i am always lost in rejoicing my past , my college days.
I know it is just a year since i left the college . Feels like it was years back.
But someone once said "Life is my college"
f you haven't the strength to impose your own terms upon life, you must accept the terms it offers you. - T.S ELiot
Some things are disturbing , some are sweet.
Yes , now i am a complete software engineer . A lot of things are happening around me and i feel disinterested in all of it and i am always lost in rejoicing my past , my college days.
I know it is just a year since i left the college . Feels like it was years back.
But someone once said "Life is my college"
f you haven't the strength to impose your own terms upon life, you must accept the terms it offers you. - T.S ELiot
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
It is all about 'feeling'
Its been a long time..
I finished my first project on last friday. bit excited .
I am listening to some of Jagjit singh's ghazals . I am feeling really happy today . It is sometimes so strange that u feel happy without any proper reason.
Not feeling like doing anything . There is some magic in his voice . u just feel like listening to it forever. 'badal ke tarah jumke lehrake jeeyenge'
I finished my first project on last friday. bit excited .
I am listening to some of Jagjit singh's ghazals . I am feeling really happy today . It is sometimes so strange that u feel happy without any proper reason.
Not feeling like doing anything . There is some magic in his voice . u just feel like listening to it forever. 'badal ke tarah jumke lehrake jeeyenge'
Monday, September 19, 2005
confusing harmonics

The harmonics are confusing:-)

This is from my work board...
Day by day i am drowning in the sea of waves, not usual sea waves this time...
It is something very cartoonic where i can see hundred asterix over my head with a shocking wave flowing through me..(Not A beautiful mind anyway)
I am getting adjusted to the new kind of work(???)..
Not always someone can be paid for sitting and writing blog..
Dont think like that, look at the picture again..:-)
adieu
Thursday, September 15, 2005
The Reincarnation
15th september 2004..
The day when both happiness and sadness were prevailed in the air...
10:30 in the night, me and my friend were going in a bike,
the wind was sizzling past our ears making some funny sounds..
Our mind was in a state of confusion, but still concentrating on the black road which seemed still darker on a gloomy night.. My shouldes were wet from the tears of my friend.
Everything was going well till i realised my mistake.. The headlight was not on..
It was too late.. The thing which was least expected happened..
For the next few seconds my mind was literally in dark. When i was back into conscious i saw my friend trying to stop the coming vehicles asking them to take me to the hospital,nobody stopped ..
I didnt know what was happening, neither i could feel any pain. He started to run towards the hostel and asked me to go to the hospital . I was confused, i didint know how to react, but i kept moving(by the time i never forgot to park the vehicle and take the key).
I just touched my face with my palm and and i saw that it was full of blood..
oh my god, my whole hand was full of blood... now i could see the blood drooping from above the eye to the cheek . It was not fun anymore. I was afraid.. Suddenly i could see my childhood friend walking down the road . I ran to him.. I asked him 'what happened to my face?'. He said nothing(???). I was feeling really week by then.
Then a suddenly a bike came from nowhere and he asked me to sit on that.
Just as i reached the hospital i saw doctors and nurses running to help me... But it was not that serious that i cant handle myself(i dont know, may be i could not).
Then it was a smooth flowing till the next morning when i started to feel the pain.
I want to write something about the hostel-hospital life.. but sometime later
theju
The day when both happiness and sadness were prevailed in the air...
10:30 in the night, me and my friend were going in a bike,
the wind was sizzling past our ears making some funny sounds..
Our mind was in a state of confusion, but still concentrating on the black road which seemed still darker on a gloomy night.. My shouldes were wet from the tears of my friend.
Everything was going well till i realised my mistake.. The headlight was not on..
It was too late.. The thing which was least expected happened..
For the next few seconds my mind was literally in dark. When i was back into conscious i saw my friend trying to stop the coming vehicles asking them to take me to the hospital,nobody stopped ..
I didnt know what was happening, neither i could feel any pain. He started to run towards the hostel and asked me to go to the hospital . I was confused, i didint know how to react, but i kept moving(by the time i never forgot to park the vehicle and take the key).
I just touched my face with my palm and and i saw that it was full of blood..
oh my god, my whole hand was full of blood... now i could see the blood drooping from above the eye to the cheek . It was not fun anymore. I was afraid.. Suddenly i could see my childhood friend walking down the road . I ran to him.. I asked him 'what happened to my face?'. He said nothing(???). I was feeling really week by then.
Then a suddenly a bike came from nowhere and he asked me to sit on that.
Just as i reached the hospital i saw doctors and nurses running to help me... But it was not that serious that i cant handle myself(i dont know, may be i could not).
Then it was a smooth flowing till the next morning when i started to feel the pain.
I want to write something about the hostel-hospital life.. but sometime later
theju
Monday, September 12, 2005
From yesterday to tomorrow
This is my second post, still finding it difficult to write ..
Its been almost two months i am working for Celstream Technologies as a design enginneer..(i consider it so)
Life is so diffferent here..
For a lazy person who sleeps 10-12 hours a day,it is like a sudden changeover..
Today i have no work in the office, but still i have to sit here for 9 hours..
The journey...
Life seems like some strange illusion..
Year 2001, sometime in september
I stepped into a college , Sjce..
Elders ask the small kids 'son, what do you want to become when u become young?'
I never answered such kind of questions, not because i didnt want to talk, i never knew what should i say?..
'Going with the wind' is a phrase which suits me and wind took me here.
College changed the course of my life(Actually the hostel life), my way of thinking, my way of looking at things..
From a kid always lost in a dream world to a person who is trying to dream of a real world....
Not everything can be put in words..
So i think it is the time to adieu.. i know it is a sudden ending but
life is a strange illusion
theju
Its been almost two months i am working for Celstream Technologies as a design enginneer..(i consider it so)
Life is so diffferent here..
For a lazy person who sleeps 10-12 hours a day,it is like a sudden changeover..
Today i have no work in the office, but still i have to sit here for 9 hours..
The journey...
Life seems like some strange illusion..
Year 2001, sometime in september
I stepped into a college , Sjce..
Elders ask the small kids 'son, what do you want to become when u become young?'
I never answered such kind of questions, not because i didnt want to talk, i never knew what should i say?..
'Going with the wind' is a phrase which suits me and wind took me here.
College changed the course of my life(Actually the hostel life), my way of thinking, my way of looking at things..
From a kid always lost in a dream world to a person who is trying to dream of a real world....
Not everything can be put in words..
So i think it is the time to adieu.. i know it is a sudden ending but
life is a strange illusion
theju
Friday, September 09, 2005
The pinnacle
hello everybody,
I am writing the blog for the first time..
So i know it is not worth seeing or reading it..
But everybody starts with a crawl before run..
So way to go...
Dont ask me why did i name the blog as pinnacle even though it is just the beginning...
Who doesn't want to reach the pinnacle of success?
I am writing the blog for the first time..
So i know it is not worth seeing or reading it..
But everybody starts with a crawl before run..
So way to go...
Dont ask me why did i name the blog as pinnacle even though it is just the beginning...
Who doesn't want to reach the pinnacle of success?
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